today I realized I'm phasing out...

thank you, boss! Today we got released from "work" early because we had a change-of-command ceremony. Thankfully we didn't have to stay for this ceremony which usually consists of standing in formation for hours and hours...days and days. well, maybe I'm exaggerating a bit. But it is a long time to stand at the position of attention! So, with the free time I took my happy little self to my hometown to visit the fam...and I'm so glad I did! It sure beats sitting by myself at the ho-tel. Bein' with my family also makes my life-at this point in time-feel relatively normal. Life seems less and less normal each day for some reason. I wonder if all people in the "part-time" military feel this way, or maybe I'm just on crack? Either way, I have my civilian life with great clothes and mostly no rules and my military life with an endless supply of THE SAME uniform and many many rules. These two lives were always difficult to transition between, but now that I'm phasing out one of my lives I kinda feel...uneasy? I guess I'm not sure how I feel. I just know that soon a lot of things will be missing...including awesome, wonderful people; my bed; my clothes, shoes, purses; and my car...and I just don't know if I can live without...my purses. :) hehe. Just kidding. I'm trying to think of ways to soften the blow of missing friends and family, but I think I just need a different way of looking at it. When I was at the beach with a good buddy and the waves were comin' in over our heads, we knew we couldn't jump over/with them so we had to tuck our shoulder like a soldier and jump into the wave with all our might. So here I go...not much I can do. Lookin back won't bring me any closer, so I guess I'll tuck my shoulder and brace for the blow...