looks like love

Lately me and God have been getting to know each other in a different way than I ever have experienced...and through this all I've realized two main things
1) I'm embarrassed of my past...almost afraid of it, knowing that at any second it can sneak up behind me and haunt me from any direction.
2) I think I might be afraid of love...not just love, but the thought of Jesus loving me unconditionally, not thinking twice, not asking questions. To me, it seems almost too good to be true and I'm afraid of accepting it and then having it taken away from me. I know His love is constant--because that's what the Bible tells me--but the only humanly love I've seen (that wasn't from my family) was fake and short-lived...maybe not even love at all...and it hurt. It hurt to be loved.

These two thoughts have been my companion lately...
Today I was running on the treadmill at the gym. Normally I have my rock mix that I listen to while I run...it pumps me up, ya know? But today, I just had it on random. I had just gotten lots of new music from a friend of mine so naturally a new song came up that I hadn't heard before. I didn't catch all the words, but the ones I did catch set my heart on fire.
I think it was written from a guy to a girl...but that's not the way I heard it in my head. No. I sang it with my whole heart...to God.

p.s. at the bottom is the video for it, so you can hear it while you read the lyrics.

Looks Like Love
by: Needtobreathe

Take another step
Don’t give up on me just yet
We could take a chance
We could find a child’s romance
At least we’d love until we can’t

I wont run when it looks like love
I won’t hide beneath the fear
Of how my past has come undone

I wont run when it looks like love
I can’t spend another night alone
Regretting what I’ve done
So, I won’t run

The breeze can only be
When she overcomes the heat
Our hearts can only shake
When there’s risk that they could break
Yeah it’s a chance that I will take

I wont run when it looks like love
I won’t hide beneath the fear
Of how my past has come undone

I wont run when it looks like love
I can’t spend another night alone
Regretting what I’ve done
So, I won’t run

Raise your head
Its time to say
Those words that I have left unsaid
I’ve slept through the sunrise
And I turned
Away every time it got bright

this video was the ONLY one on youtube for this song...so disappointed.
the song, though...amazing